Feb 29

Well, it's almost three months into the year and I am posting less and less. Whoops.

I may be doing terribly at this yearly goal, but I did quite well at my February artistic challenge.

Behold the wall of polaroids!!

Did I actually take one each day? No. But I took 29 polaroids and I only threw out one that was a test for camera angle. Part of the challenge was not just taking a picture a day, but to be ok with the images I took even if they didn't come out perfectly or even close to what I thought they'd look like. I took pics of my body looking weird and the mess in my room.

They are not all pretty. Some are quite weird.

Like me.

Feb 14

I have made it more than a week without engaging in the binge/purge cycle. Granted I did eat practically nothing for dinner twice this week which is Not Good, but still.

This has been a very anxiety-filled week because I do not do well with ambiguity and I am waiting for a person to text me back and they have not and it is taking all my energy not to think about it or what led to it or just to not text again being all but do you like me? check yes or no.

I've even had to listen to sleep stories to fall asleep because my brain won't stop worrying about what might happen or what imagined terrible thing I did that this person is not getting back to me. Thank you LeVar Burton for so soothingly telling me about the solar system. I've managed to stay conscious as far as Mars. If not for my previous knowledge about the solar system, I'd think it consisted of one massive sun and only 4 tiny planets.

At least romantic anxiety has led to snippets of at least 4 songs. I even put chords to one of them! Time to go take an anxiety-fueled walk now. Go go gadget coping strategies!!

Feb 3

Instagram ads got me and now I own a polaroid camera. Because I use my expensive DSLR soooo much that I need a second camera. It's actually fun 'cause I can just hand people photos and also it does double exposure which means I CAN TAKE GHOST PHOTOS.

So now on top of this whole "posting in a blog thing" I think I'm going to pick a new creative challenge each month.

This month I'm gonna take a polaroid a day. 

Accidentally took a regular selfie yesterday since I keep forgetting to use the app to do the whole double exposure thing and just wanna press the big red button. But today I BECAME A GIANT GHOST IN MY KITCHEN. LIKE I AM HAUNTING THAT EXPOSED BRICK.

Expect more double exposure shenanigans. Maybe some light painting. The world is my fucking oyster.